miss the siblings..:__((

For the past two weeks I barely spoke to my two sisters..my Big Tata has not gone back to Jakarta for couple weeks and the little one has been gone to RSUD Tangerang for her med school internship...heeyyyyy galllssss i miss both of you so much...please come home soon..am going crazy attending all the family events just with ibu... ohhhhhh how chaotic our family could be with those mean attitude among others.

Tata: good luck with all the preparation for you final thesis..i know you will pass it with outstanding result.. then just drive home safely and have a decent family dinner (my treat).

Bogemon: let's have a fight, let's scream, yell, and shout at each other...i owe you a pair of new shoes and upgrade our cable tv!!!!

-supermellowsister-

10 Things I hate About Training (in my office)

i hate to attend training!!!! the #1 reason: I have to wake up early (hari ini bangun jam 6, been a while i had not woke up early!!).. reason #2: mandi express (so not me!!!!!).. reason#3: morning traffic (bernagkat siang lebih gak macet drpd berangkat pagi. Bener" cocok antara traffic sm kebiasaan gwe).. reason#4 sleepy to the max (no matter how much you had sleep at night, when the trainer starts talking, tears drop from my eyes).. reason #5 away from your mates (ansos parah gara" training)..reason#6 have to do all the works after training (lembur terpaksa)..reason #7 istirahat efektif (cuma 1 jam gak bisa colongan)..reason #8 makan siang gak sesuai selera (kadang enak kadang enggak)..reason #9 in the class all the time (ya iyalah emang outbond??)..and the reason #10: I HATE TO READ AND DO ALL THE TRAINING MATERIALS!!!!

Need a vacation!!!!!!

Gara" gak ada kerjaan pas liburan lebaran dan slalu gak bisa tidur cepet skarang punya hobby baru buka" facebook dan ngeliatin foto" temen" saya apalagi klo ada foto liburan.. super ngilerrrrrrrrr......pgn bgt ke bali dan euro trip....ke bali krn pgn bgt watersport dan mantai..klo eurotrip krn baru liat foto" yg di post temen saya yg lg mau ngambil s2 di leeds.... iri liat foto" dengan pemandangan yg bagus...yang udah" setiap liburan ke luar negeri saya dan kluarga slalu ke tempat wisata yg ramai dikunjungin orng dan ujung" nya ke mall buat belanja.. pgn bgt sekali" going overseas tapi ke tempat" yang gak biasa dikunjungin turis..(bisa gak ya, secara nafsu belanja amat tinggi, liat sale sedikit keimanan runtuh..:))))

akhir" ini sangat ingin pergi liburan dikarenakan eneg yg amat sangat dengan kerjaan dan kantor.. apalagi dengan klien saya yg terakhir.. yg gak release"...ya Allah "GANGGU" bgt niy klien.. mengganggu kewarasan otak saya.. mengganggu ibadah ramadhan.. mengganggu jadwal liburan dan lain".. ya Allah segerakanlah release klien ini...buatlah saya tetep waras untuk menyelesaikan nya..dan yg terakhir ya Allah berikanlah saya kerjaan baru di tempat lain dengan kerjaan yang challenging tp tidak membuat gila, dengan boss yg waras, dan dengan gaji yg Alhamdulillah...(pray every day for the last wish, i'm done being an auditor)

balik lagi ke liburan... smoga taun ini bisa ngajak ibu dan adik saya si ogemon liburan... udah rencana dr kapan tau buat liburan brg gagal trus.. klo gak krn waktunya gak pas sm jadwal masing" ato gak pas jadwal cocok duit gak ada (ini yg plg sering)...smoga taun ini bisa nabung buat liburan sm ibu....

smoga keinginan liburan segera terwujud..for keeping me sane in this crazy world..

love you, ibu..forever and for always

Udah lama bgt mau nge post sesuatu tentang ibu saya..to show my gratitude that God gives the three of us the bestest mother. Today, i found this poem which describes few words i could tell about my mom..

mother,
for as long as i can remember..
you were always by my side, to give me support, confidence, and help
for as long as i can remember..
you were always the person i looked up to
so strong, so sensitive, so pretty
for as long as i can remember..
you always provided stability within our family
full of laughter, full of tears, full of love
for as long as i can remember..
and still today, you are everything a mother should be
whatever i have become is because of you
and i thank you forever for our relationship....

ibu.. thanks for always love us unconditionally.. i love you forever and for always..

maaf ya bu klo kita sering bandel..apalagi sering bikin ibu pusing dengan smua kelakuan kita...:))

ikhlas...move on..get a life...

Again...my best friend's post menyadarkan saya bahwa akhir" ini saya banyak membuang hidup saya untuk sebuah kesedihan yg gak berguna...terlalu menggunakan emosi dibanding rasio buat hal" yang seharusnya bisa di atasi, which resulted gloomy days for the past two months..the worst part was i kept the feeling all by myself..karena merasa orng lain pasti akan bosen denger crita saya, yang itu" aja..dengan nasihat yg selalu sama.."loe harus bisa ikhlas yu!" every day i always asked my self how am i supposed to do to be ikhlas..pengen bgt bisa ikhlas tp dunno how to do..berasa ada unfinished business sehingga saya terus"an memikirkan masalah ini..i have done a lot of things to forget this feeling..even on my holiday, i kept thinking about this..lately, sudah merasa agak mendingan.. gak selalu mrasa gloomy lagi.. thanks to you, my dear friend,, you helped me so much to move on...:)) though i know it will need more months to get over it..but i promise i"ll try my best...

This is part of my best friend's write that make me realized that i have wasted my time for the past two months :

Mungkin buat beberapa teman gw bulan ini penuh cobaan, penuh kesedihan, penuh perenungan mental tingkat tinggi dimana lo ga bisa mengandalkan dirilo sendiri dan perlu andil Tuhan untuk menyelesaikan semuanya. but hey all the sadness have bound us. make us strength. 

buat apa kita compare kehidupan kita dengan kehidupan orang lain, buat apa kita mendzalimi diri sendiri, buat apa kita terus lari dari kenyataan, buat apa kita buat jarak sama orang yang pernah nyakitin kita, buat apa buang2 seluruh energi negatif, buat apa nyalahin diri sendiri, buat apa masih berharap masa depan yang lebih baik padahal hati kecillo tau dia ga akan pernah berubah, that's all nonsense..

makasih ya nen udah nulis ini, walau mnurut loe you're not good enough as a best friend, but for me more than i could ask for a best friend...

Love you all my bestest friends in this world.. you know who you are... i love you all gals and guys...